Oh hello! I wanted to pop in and say hi and share some things I have been working through.
Lately, I’ve been feeling a bit uncomfortable. I feel like I’m amidst a big personal evolution—and I haven’t reached the end of the tunnel quite yet. I shared this post awhile back about how I sorted out an internal friction I was experiencing… holding onto my past self and lifestyle and resisting my current. And once I realized it was a lack of closure of that chapter and that I’m actually *exactly where I want to be—it was beyond liberating! But I think it also unleashed this knowing—that I have changed, my life has changed, I love the direction it’s going… but it feels like starting from scratch. Which is scary (have been having some anxiety around the feeling of ‘what’s next for me’)… but also exciting (because I know that these times of discomfort lead to growth and good things!).
I feel like I am starting over—and trying to dive deep into my why, what makes me happy, what are my priorities in life right now, how do I want my blog and The Studio to evolve with me and for me. I also kind of think that the fast-paced social media world has felt even speedier as of late and it’s overwhelming. In the always well-resonating words of Taylor Swift “And the voices that implore, “you should be doing more—to you, I can admit that I’m just too soft for all of it”.
I started blogging when I was 15 as a way to escape reality and have quiet creative time to myself. I’m definitely thinking about this a lot as I start to dream up new work rituals, how I want to operate, and just go about being an internet being in this day and age. I want to keep this corner of the internet pure, calm, fueling, comforting like early-blog-days—with both my process and whatever I create…
Instead of resisting this feeling of limbo, which I’ve learned only prolongs these moments of discomfort, I’m going to lean into it and trust the process. Do things that I know help to clear my mind and fuels me positively and creatively.
Thanks for making your way over to my blog to visit and read—chat more here soon! xx